Doesn’t’ this seem odd to do? First off writing yourself a letter to talk to your subconscious mind. Feeding it with more depressing thoughts so it can feast on your happiness and well being? To accomplish what? What does this kind of behavior result in?
It’s not always easy being on the other side of the glossy display on your shiny new Mac you’ve dreamed about. Did you think by purchasing this computer you would fill the internal void that grows each day collecting cancerous dust particles of negativity and hate? How this constant feeling of emptiness originates from thoughts like the picture above.
You clearly cannot let go no matter who stumbles into your life, it’s not that you don’t want to try....
You are physically and emotionally unable to give someone else a chance.
This girl, she holds my heart in the air everyday as if it is some trophy maybe one of many she collects.
When you needed your family the most, they were stuck fighting their own curses and you know you didn’t want to disturb them.
Why do you wake up each morning hoping the loss of her was some stupid dream ? And when you look at your phone in the morning you realized you fell asleep talking to her.
That this is some stupid sleeping sickness you can’t shake off.
I have an issue with my grip, I hold on. I pray to a God I’ve only heard stories about asking...
to see her, feel her presence, touch her delicate face, run my fingers up and down through her hands savoring each sensation on each finger she gives to me.
What compels a man like me with so much going for himself to feel like he has nothing.
I am so broken, shattered, I don’t know how much of this pain I can handle anymore. I am so weak
I can’t shed the tears that have dried up and infected my thirst for happiness and acceptance.
This feeling is unbelievable, and at times...unbearable
Breaking points have already been present in my life...I tried to take my life...twice
I dont think people can help you when your hearts in so many places it fails to rebuild itself.
I don’t think the mindset this girl had me glued to compared to any good mindset I’ve ever had.
I loved her...love her
I can’t find a place to put my heart when she holds it.
How can you ask for it back? You can’t
She completed every part of you every empty spot that you had in your childhood, teenage family bullshit....
You had her.
That’s all that mattered to you.
Her being there in your life.
The world never prepared me for this.
I didn’t prepare the world for me.
I never prepared to meet my soulmate right outside my fucking door.
There she was, outside my door I can only pretend
Pretend like a little child in his room alone because adults were too busy.
There was my bride, my queen, my purpose for existing as a human being.
I miss her, and I miss you, the old you. I wish we could get both back but it’s too late. I’m gone, I’m done soon and she will never love me.